Happy Anniversary Gary….....today would have made 19 years!! I am so thankful for the 12 long years (16 if you count from when we first started dating our junior year of highschool), but mad as hell that its OVER!! I hate that your gone and I’m left here to try and figure out what to do with myself!!! I lost my husband (yeah, yeah best friend and soul mate too), my lifestyle, the only home my girls had known, 90% of all our friends, a piece of my soul and my future!! One would think that 7+ years later I would have this young widow thing licked, but I seem to be having some issues with getting on with life. It seems that every time I think I’m getting on, something creeps in and screws it all up!! It seems to work in 3 year intervals…..ya’ know, just long enough to get in really good with someone before the rug gets pulled out from under your feet!! UUUUUGGGHHHH!! Sometimes I REALLY REALLY REALLY HATE being a freakin’ widow!! Like I said earlier, we would have been married 19 years today. I’m sure we would have still had the occasional trial or tribulation to overcome, but we would still be madly in love with one another, still pushing each others buttons, and still lovin’ every minute of it! You could have marveled at these 2 beautiful creatures we made, grow and mature into perfect combination of us! LOL!!! Like that is what the worlds needs…..a combination of me and you! Whew!! Be ready world for the Collins’ girls!! I sooooo, hate that you are not here with me NOW cuz your oldest daughter (16 in a few days) is starting to bring boys home and I certainly cannot greet them in my underwear with a gun-holster on!!! (Well, I guess I could, but that would be inappropriate!) Anyways, I guess I’m just trying to say that…..you’ve been gone a long time and I really miss you. I’m still sad on our anniversaries, Christmas, Valentine’s day, etc. I miss you, I miss you, I miss you. Happy anniversary.
Your wife the widow,
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