On March 27th, 2012 my life was forever changed.
I was 18 weeks pregnant with our first child, up and at ‘em early that morning, getting ready to go to my second trimester ultrasound appointment. I had been trying all morning to reach my fiancé because he always watched our son’s ultrasounds over skype…he was already such a proud Daddy. But ring after ring with no answer left me confused and worried….I didn’t want him to miss it. I tried one last time to call him, but just moments later, as I was rushing to leave, I got the news I never wanted to hear.
My fiancé, A1C Joel M Barrow, had been killed. Only 20 years old. Just 2 months away from returning home, after a total of 15 months overseas. In an instant, my whole world fell apart. I lost the love of my life, and the father of our unborn child.
Now, our son is almost 6 weeks old, our ‘supposed to be’ wedding is in just 3 days, and it’s coming up on 6 months since I lost my Joel.
These have been the scariest months of my life, and everyday is a battle without him. But he left me with the greatest gift, a part of him, in the sweetest little boy I know. And for that, I am forever thankful.
Always and Forever <3
Rest In Peace Love